It's starting to look like this plan is working..
I'm very excited to say, that I am beginning to feel like being an artist is a real thing a person can do. You can't have someone tell you this, you have to find it out for yourself. In the spring, I decided I'd had enough of watching time slip by and feeling like I was falling farther and farther out of touch with my own practice and the rest of the community. I got myself organized, made a very intense flow chart listing all of the possible internships, volunteer opportunities, grant deadlines, residencies etc, and then wrote out their deadlines and websites. I circled all the things I was most interested in, and started applying. I didn't expect to get much out of it, but it was a very worthwhile experience for me.
Of course, not everything I applied for was successful. But the summer saw me persuing at internship with the Nina Haggerty Center (which was a life-changing experience for me, perhaps I'll write a blog post about that), I worked as the Family Programs Coordinator for the Works Art and Design Festival, I taught pottery and mixed media classes in St. Albert, and I set up a studio and began new work. I was so overwhelmed with my good fortune, that I felt like I needed to give as much of myself as I could to the world to balance out the wonderful luck I've been having.
I am still riding on that wave, and now I've been even more blessed to have recieved an Edmonton Arts Council Grant to start research on some new sculptures, I won an Edmonton Community Foundation Scholarship and I had two of my works selected for the YEG Canvas public art project. I'm busier than ever, but now is a great time to ask me for a favour, as I am experiencing strong urges to "pay it forward" and share some of these good feelings.
The weirdest part is that I still don't feel like I earned any of these things. I feel like I got tremendously lucky, or someone made a mistake, and I've got to prove I deserve it before anyone finds out. It's terribly exciting. For now, I'm just so pleased that some juries out there think I'm worth investing in.
The moral of the story is: Take care of as many eggs as you can. You never know how many will hatch.